Then I found myself thinking about my grandmother. I remembered the times when almost all her youngest grandchildren were sent to her home during summer holidays. Even though parents sent their children, not all were sent with money for their food, which caused my grandmother a lot of stress. She had a vegetable garden in her backyard and trees such as drumstick, mango, tamarind, and so on. She would gather everything that was ready and give each of us a share to sell at the local market.
I was not a teenager yet and didn’t feel ashamed of selling things. It was fun. However, there were neighbors who loved me so much that they asked me to come and took everything I needed to sell instantly. I was the lucky one and never had to walk to the local market or sell anything. My grandmother would then give me another round of things to sell, and I could sell it instantly. My cousins were not that lucky, and there were some problems. One fell, and everything ended up on the ground, unsellable. Another sat in the market for a very long time without selling anything. Now I understand the level of stress my grandmother had to bear that summer.
I was no stranger to selling things, but when I was a teenager, I became too shy. When I was sent to my uncle’s shop to help him when I was around 16, I couldn’t sell anything. Later, while our medical school was closed for a very long time, and I wasn’t sure if I would ever get my degree, I tried selling jewelry as a broker. I carried precious items in my backpack and took buses to different places. I was lucky, and nothing happened. With someone's help, I sold a lot of things at that time. When the business started doing well, I was pressured to change the price and make more money, which made me unhappy, so I stopped that job.
Many people think my life is smooth and that I haven’t faced many hardships, which is why I look younger than my age. I believe I look younger because of my genetics, meditation habits, and physical activities throughout my life. When I look back, I realize I’ve survived things I thought I would never overcome. My life has never been a smooth ride. I’ve tried hard persistently, and then I got into a good situation, only to have things change again, forcing me to restart everything. I didn’t have enough emotional support throughout my life, which is why I turned to meditation.
Nevertheless, I have reached this age and this situation, and I am truly proud of myself today. I do not know what the future holds, but I know I still have the strength and will to continue living my best life. These are my thoughts this early morning.
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